since

since you get into this line,we are close enough.

sometimes we having problems,you're there.

sometimes you having problems,we're there.

[sometimes you don't willing to speak it out we don't force]

but. . .

i feel something recently.

something that i wish im not that sensitive.

im not sure whether just me or she or everyone.

but just different from last time.

feel like you don't really wanna get to us already.

feel like you don't really care about being with us already.

feel like you don't really tolerate already.

feel like you just not into us already.

i know there for sure will be some argument or whatever conflict it happens sometimes but that is just so got me tired every time.

should i really need to care with every of this?

i appreciate every single friendship whenever it is worthwhile for it.

but i just go exhausted.

i don't like seeing you guys get pale on your worries.

[maybe i cant help but you can just make yourselves comfortable-speak it out]

we willing to listen and this is what friendship for.

i'm speechless to think about it only sigh*

whatever and who cares

[although i really cares sometimes]

feeling

read few blogs and decided to wrote this post.

a relationship effected friendship.

a very best friend relation changed because of a 3rd party.

i think this situation is very common already.

but still there is a mix feeling.

did you guys ever feel like losing a friend after they got their relationship?

should we really got our priority to grab our friend?

not fully took them as ourself but the time we together.

should we suppose to fight for the friendship?

OR should we just let them be and be prepare whenever the touch wood situation happen?

sometimes that case will just be like we are being used although you don't really care bout that.

is this the feeling from me which is S/A?

i don't think so.

comparison

just back from berjaya university and gardenia factory.

put away berjaya university and say about gardenia.

it is so much different compare to high5 and gardenia factory.

high5 management sucks and the people are sucks too.

gardenia label all to make us understand although we don't really stand together and staff are friendly too.

gosh,there is much more stuff but hardly to tell it by writing it out.

should take sometimes to experience it.^^

tired days and i wish i able to wake up for my fermented beancurd~

bye guys~

stud

should i take it off?

heart 1516

don't really wanna let it be.

gahh.

fullstops

a great ending for a year.

got some compliment from guys!

at least not a sad-ness ending.

<3

last day

back from doing CNY cookies which just sleep 9 hours in 3 days.

New year eve today.

go nowhere.

stay and hanging out with family and lappie.

don't feel like joining the hectic city.

feel like chill at somewhere but no frens.

how sad.

><

anyhoo, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!

moodless button ON

doesn't feel great recently.

as u can saw all my previous post are mostly in either emotional or sad-ish post.

today,same.

didn't feel good.

something keep dragging my mood down.

i have no idea what is it.

my heart just doesn't feel hyper.

uncomfortable.

a very one.

inhale or exhale.

feel like heart dropped till stomach already but i still don't no why is it happen like that.

am i so weak?

i don't wish that.

big sigh*

i wish to get a deep breathe after new year.

sadness post i wish it just for 2010.

stop following me and that is it.

expected

as i expected
there must be something that make me cant really in the mood.
every single time also does this.
im scare of expected something.
whenever the higher expectation,there must be something that drag me down.
why is it a Must to happen?
why there must be a problem occur?

sorry dudes and babes if im not the one who know last time.
the expectation is another nightmare of me.
is just cant wipe away.
=|

anyway,
Merry X'mas everyone!
love yea.
XOXO

am i?

feel something.

r u hiding?

or am i over sensitive?

finger cross it wont happen ok.

please.

sorry

sorry to myself for being so depress recently.

sorry to myself for being E.

sorry to myself for being sad without anything/nothing.

sorry to my buddy that im not in a good mood.

><

no in the mood

after practical of the day.

a sudden mood drag me down.

no idea what happen.

just cant really get the hyper mood.

the body is just like someone have taken my soul or mood.

and left the shell of me.

tired of something.

college perhaps.

no expression at the mean time.

no laughter.

no strength.

no heart.

the wizard

lil wizard appear.

im trying to hide it as possible as i could.

i wish i can make it again.

maybe this going to be a tough wan.

i trust myself i can go through it.

definitely absolutely a MUST!

good luck to myself!

♥

chapter of life

walk this morning for grandpapaII funeral.

the end of a chapter.

the chapter of life.

may you rest in peace.

♥

Rest In Peace

GrandpapaII passed away this morning.

May him rest in peace.

♥

first-so-ever-regret

decide to go somewhere which at first didn't plan to.

but after all,all the stuff to make me regret is so much coming up.

history has been repeating whenever i decided something.

this make me started to afraid to decide anything in the future.

i do really regret with this stuff honestly.

the thing i've been waiting,i cant able to go.

since christmas is around the corner,i wish Santa can fullfill my needs.

Please Santa.

got a turn off for my mood the whole day.

dreaming something which i think more than useless.

sorry to my lecturer which i was dreaming in the class.

i didn't mean to.

i swear.

i just. . .

cant bear it.

again,

so much thing come at a time again.

TT

no think no life?

dead

sorry for dead-ing my blog.
i was so not in the mood for blogging nowadays.
here infection there infection.
dunno where can i stop those.
niameh.
y cant human just live healthy ever after?
anyways,need to get back to the life no matter what happen.

ignore my blaming above.
so Christmas is around there,what you guys planing for?

neglected

no mood for blog recently.

new semester start.

E comes frequently.

although i got no idea whats going on.

don't have any clue about mood down-ing also.

[cause of too free? no!]

was

thinking bout the past present and future.

too many things came at the same time.

tired.

but somehow,last semester to study.

should stay happy and enjoy as much as possible probably.

and

yea,moving again.

what will it live goes?

-unknown-

-clueless-

don't wanna think about also.

why im not the kind of person who easy to cry it out loud?

some times i do really wish i can do so.

so i can express it whenever im in stupid mood.

that will be amazing if i can cry and express then a brand new day for me.

aisk.

just cant.

$*)@&#$@#$

since when

laughter no longer bright?

since when my is my LOL?

since when my laughter gone?

since when. . .

i wish that i can stay in a anonymous city without any $ and worry needed.

impossible huh

=]

back to where im i

im back guys.
to shitland.
away for 5 days.
kinda relaxing and enjoyable trip.
with open eyes.

city of the land of angels:
conclusion-
ladies are mad rich
guys are mad cute and stylish
tourist which i saw around the walking street or beach are mad handsome
food and drinks are mad delicious and lovely.
JimThompson house are mad fantastic.
overall trip are mad gorgeous!

semester break

went to beach side for BBQ with gangs on thurs which a relax+ smooth trip.

BBQ all seafood and stuff from 1pm-5ish pm.

all the games that planned didn't get to play bcoz everyone is busy with taking pictures and fun.

everythings goes so so smooth until hardly could believe.

and we went to see the fireflies with the crazy sampans.

is so near to the water once we sit on the sampans.

really scare my lungs out!

and i cant believe i saw crocodile!!!

damn!

moving soon.

packing stuff is tiring!

small place but actually many stuff when u packed it.

gosh~ i dunno i got so many clothes. ><

[i usually repeat what i wear everyweek.]

i shall stop crapping here~

many stuff waiting me to pack.

ciao

dead

City and Guilds paper just pass,and now other exam is around the corner.

lappie taken to repair but condition still the same.

honestly this really bring me down.

im got no idea how it gonna be later.

damn!

and this situation,most probably E come.

)(*&#@*(^$#*@(