moodless mood light up again

since when the last im having the laughter that is sincerely laugh from the bottom of my heart?

there is no movie that make me really LMAO nowadays.

day go by day

so fast yet furious?

nothing but keep emoing.

fucktard myself.

TT

unknown

i like the feel from you.

but. . .

the way you treat others are great too.

don't dare to take further guessing.

not brave enough with no confident me.

stages

the feeling is still there.

a trip

having a trip to sungkai this morning then back to baby town after that.

many stalls that i usually eat and favorite food didn't open.

feeling like didn't get them a great trip and a well ending.

anyway,thanks them for giving a day like this!

i love you guys!

♥

dermographism?

got dermographism before dinner.

damn itchy!

for the whole body!

gosh!!!!

first time ever having such hyper condition!

goshhhhhhhh!

someone help!

sudden post

kinda long time with this feeling.

secretly.

i know is better to stay at this situation.

but i wish more.

---------

CNY praying

outside bombing fireworks like cats and dogs.

so envy them who able to celebrate.

this is the second time i didn't celebrate these.

but this is the first time im urge for celebrating.

feel so sad that cant able to burn those dead note and lighten the big huge tanglung together.

><

not the well feeling as i thought

well,perhaps this year Cny should be a great one for me.

almost everyone from overseas came back for this celebration.

but. . .

this celebration aren't my favorite at all.

maybe these due to the separated family "issue".

this celebration should be awesome if everyone can celebrate together without any argument or whatsoever unhappy stuff.

but this won't happen for my whole life.

yes, is great that everyone is back.

but is so hard to recover after a short happy days.

this happen since early secondary days.

trying hard not to exposed this "stupid" feelings because they hardly came back and i know they want great holiday like i do.

i do enjoy some days.

but happy great days are always Godly short. why it is so cruel to give me few days of Heaven feeling and go to the Hell after that short while? im not happy at all.

around the corner

shouldn't i say so.

30th night of Cny today.

without any feel of Cny.

many ppl came back but kinda tired with these sometimes.

too big family ain't great tho.

tired with all those talking craping.

Cny,is just the day for me to fill my pocket and meet those crazy beloved only.

other than that,who give a damn?!

anyway,i even forgotten today is the Reunion Dinner.

sorry if i ruin your day with this post.

Happy Chinese New Year.

hi

hehe
seems so strange to write a blog post from a laptop that not belong to me.
anyway,been so busy for shopping,walking,eating and some other shit at OZ.
grow fat,got tanned and get muscles from here!
will going back few days after but Indonesia's dunno which Volcano seems going to erupt soon.
finger cross after few days only erupt orelse i cant back to M'sia.><
anyway,Happy Chinese New Year and get more Ang Paos yea!
will try update soon!
<3

whatever

whatever happens,what problems idk.

im going off lur~

take care guys!

gosh!

why is it so damn 9 many problems geh.

know how to blame this blame that.

but does you guys think about others?

why you guys so damn selfish one?

not in money way but the way you threaten.

i know there is problem in "this"

but please think twice before u do or judge anything please.

don't act like a kid can?

baiser!

pack!

yeah

drag till the last night only willing to pack my stuff.

gosh.

sweat like no body business man!

tired.><

how?

having light flu 2 days before my departure date?!

DAMN

how im gonna travel like this?

please be good please!!!

finger cross*

quick post

finally get my check up!

Thanks God nothing happen to my retina~

but i have a sensitive eyes and dry like no one else~

phewww~

everything fine liaw~

woohoo!

check up

after couple months of waiting,

tomoro is the day to get my eye check up.

eye doesn't feel well these days.

easily tired and dry.

wish no surgeries needed.

finger cross*

since

since you get into this line,we are close enough.

sometimes we having problems,you're there.

sometimes you having problems,we're there.

[sometimes you don't willing to speak it out we don't force]

but. . .

i feel something recently.

something that i wish im not that sensitive.

im not sure whether just me or she or everyone.

but just different from last time.

feel like you don't really wanna get to us already.

feel like you don't really care about being with us already.

feel like you don't really tolerate already.

feel like you just not into us already.

i know there for sure will be some argument or whatever conflict it happens sometimes but that is just so got me tired every time.

should i really need to care with every of this?

i appreciate every single friendship whenever it is worthwhile for it.

but i just go exhausted.

i don't like seeing you guys get pale on your worries.

[maybe i cant help but you can just make yourselves comfortable-speak it out]

we willing to listen and this is what friendship for.

i'm speechless to think about it only sigh*

whatever and who cares

[although i really cares sometimes]

feeling

read few blogs and decided to wrote this post.

a relationship effected friendship.

a very best friend relation changed because of a 3rd party.

i think this situation is very common already.

but still there is a mix feeling.

did you guys ever feel like losing a friend after they got their relationship?

should we really got our priority to grab our friend?

not fully took them as ourself but the time we together.

should we suppose to fight for the friendship?

OR should we just let them be and be prepare whenever the touch wood situation happen?

sometimes that case will just be like we are being used although you don't really care bout that.

is this the feeling from me which is S/A?

i don't think so.

comparison

just back from berjaya university and gardenia factory.

put away berjaya university and say about gardenia.

it is so much different compare to high5 and gardenia factory.

high5 management sucks and the people are sucks too.

gardenia label all to make us understand although we don't really stand together and staff are friendly too.

gosh,there is much more stuff but hardly to tell it by writing it out.

should take sometimes to experience it.^^

tired days and i wish i able to wake up for my fermented beancurd~

bye guys~

stud

should i take it off?

heart 1516

don't really wanna let it be.

gahh.