hi

hehe
seems so strange to write a blog post from a laptop that not belong to me.
anyway,been so busy for shopping,walking,eating and some other shit at OZ.
grow fat,got tanned and get muscles from here!
will going back few days after but Indonesia's dunno which Volcano seems going to erupt soon.
finger cross after few days only erupt orelse i cant back to M'sia.><
anyway,Happy Chinese New Year and get more Ang Paos yea!
will try update soon!
<3

whatever

whatever happens,what problems idk.

im going off lur~

take care guys!

gosh!

why is it so damn 9 many problems geh.

know how to blame this blame that.

but does you guys think about others?

why you guys so damn selfish one?

not in money way but the way you threaten.

i know there is problem in "this"

but please think twice before u do or judge anything please.

don't act like a kid can?

baiser!

pack!

yeah

drag till the last night only willing to pack my stuff.

gosh.

sweat like no body business man!

tired.><

how?

having light flu 2 days before my departure date?!

DAMN

how im gonna travel like this?

please be good please!!!

finger cross*

quick post

finally get my check up!

Thanks God nothing happen to my retina~

but i have a sensitive eyes and dry like no one else~

phewww~

everything fine liaw~

woohoo!

check up

after couple months of waiting,

tomoro is the day to get my eye check up.

eye doesn't feel well these days.

easily tired and dry.

wish no surgeries needed.

finger cross*

since

since you get into this line,we are close enough.

sometimes we having problems,you're there.

sometimes you having problems,we're there.

[sometimes you don't willing to speak it out we don't force]

but. . .

i feel something recently.

something that i wish im not that sensitive.

im not sure whether just me or she or everyone.

but just different from last time.

feel like you don't really wanna get to us already.

feel like you don't really care about being with us already.

feel like you don't really tolerate already.

feel like you just not into us already.

i know there for sure will be some argument or whatever conflict it happens sometimes but that is just so got me tired every time.

should i really need to care with every of this?

i appreciate every single friendship whenever it is worthwhile for it.

but i just go exhausted.

i don't like seeing you guys get pale on your worries.

[maybe i cant help but you can just make yourselves comfortable-speak it out]

we willing to listen and this is what friendship for.

i'm speechless to think about it only sigh*

whatever and who cares

[although i really cares sometimes]

feeling

read few blogs and decided to wrote this post.

a relationship effected friendship.

a very best friend relation changed because of a 3rd party.

i think this situation is very common already.

but still there is a mix feeling.

did you guys ever feel like losing a friend after they got their relationship?

should we really got our priority to grab our friend?

not fully took them as ourself but the time we together.

should we suppose to fight for the friendship?

OR should we just let them be and be prepare whenever the touch wood situation happen?

sometimes that case will just be like we are being used although you don't really care bout that.

is this the feeling from me which is S/A?

i don't think so.

comparison

just back from berjaya university and gardenia factory.

put away berjaya university and say about gardenia.

it is so much different compare to high5 and gardenia factory.

high5 management sucks and the people are sucks too.

gardenia label all to make us understand although we don't really stand together and staff are friendly too.

gosh,there is much more stuff but hardly to tell it by writing it out.

should take sometimes to experience it.^^

tired days and i wish i able to wake up for my fermented beancurd~

bye guys~

stud

should i take it off?

heart 1516

don't really wanna let it be.

gahh.

fullstops

a great ending for a year.

got some compliment from guys!

at least not a sad-ness ending.

<3

last day

back from doing CNY cookies which just sleep 9 hours in 3 days.

New year eve today.

go nowhere.

stay and hanging out with family and lappie.

don't feel like joining the hectic city.

feel like chill at somewhere but no frens.

how sad.

><

anyhoo, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!

moodless button ON

doesn't feel great recently.

as u can saw all my previous post are mostly in either emotional or sad-ish post.

today,same.

didn't feel good.

something keep dragging my mood down.

i have no idea what is it.

my heart just doesn't feel hyper.

uncomfortable.

a very one.

inhale or exhale.

feel like heart dropped till stomach already but i still don't no why is it happen like that.

am i so weak?

i don't wish that.

big sigh*

i wish to get a deep breathe after new year.

sadness post i wish it just for 2010.

stop following me and that is it.

expected

as i expected
there must be something that make me cant really in the mood.
every single time also does this.
im scare of expected something.
whenever the higher expectation,there must be something that drag me down.
why is it a Must to happen?
why there must be a problem occur?

sorry dudes and babes if im not the one who know last time.
the expectation is another nightmare of me.
is just cant wipe away.
=|

anyway,
Merry X'mas everyone!
love yea.
XOXO

am i?

feel something.

r u hiding?

or am i over sensitive?

finger cross it wont happen ok.

please.

sorry

sorry to myself for being so depress recently.

sorry to myself for being E.

sorry to myself for being sad without anything/nothing.

sorry to my buddy that im not in a good mood.

><

no in the mood

after practical of the day.

a sudden mood drag me down.

no idea what happen.

just cant really get the hyper mood.

the body is just like someone have taken my soul or mood.

and left the shell of me.

tired of something.

college perhaps.

no expression at the mean time.

no laughter.

no strength.

no heart.

the wizard

lil wizard appear.

im trying to hide it as possible as i could.

i wish i can make it again.

maybe this going to be a tough wan.

i trust myself i can go through it.

definitely absolutely a MUST!

good luck to myself!

♥

chapter of life

walk this morning for grandpapaII funeral.

the end of a chapter.

the chapter of life.

may you rest in peace.

♥