Friday, December 31, 2010


a great ending for a year.
got some compliment from guys!
at least not a sad-ness ending.

last day

back from doing CNY cookies which just sleep 9 hours in 3 days.
New year eve today.
go nowhere.
stay and hanging out with family and lappie.
don't feel like joining the hectic city.
feel like chill at somewhere but no frens.
how sad.


anyhoo, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!

Sunday, December 26, 2010

moodless button ON

doesn't feel great recently.
as u can saw all my previous post are mostly in either emotional or sad-ish post.
didn't feel good.
something keep dragging my mood down.
i have no idea what is it.
my heart just doesn't feel hyper.
a very one.
inhale or exhale.
feel like heart dropped till stomach already but i still don't no why is it happen like that.
am i so weak?
i don't wish that.
big sigh*
i wish to get a deep breathe after new year.
sadness post i wish it just for 2010.
stop following me and that is it.

Friday, December 24, 2010


as i expected
there must be something that make me cant really in the mood.
every single time also does this.
im scare of expected something.
whenever the higher expectation,there must be something that drag me down.
why is it a Must to happen?
why there must be a problem occur?

sorry dudes and babes if im not the one who know last time.
the expectation is another nightmare of me.
is just cant wipe away.

Merry X'mas everyone!
love yea.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

am i?

feel something.
r u hiding?
or am i over sensitive?
finger cross it wont happen ok.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010


sorry to myself for being so depress recently.
sorry to myself for being E.
sorry to myself for being sad without anything/nothing.
sorry to my buddy that im not in a good mood.


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

no in the mood

after practical of the day.
a sudden mood drag me down.
no idea what happen.
just cant really get the hyper mood.
the body is just like someone have taken my soul or mood.
and left the shell of me.
tired of something.
college perhaps.
no expression at the mean time.
no laughter.
no strength.
no heart.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

the wizard

lil wizard appear.
im trying to hide it as possible as i could.
i wish i can make it again.
maybe this going to be a tough wan.
i trust myself i can go through it.
definitely absolutely a MUST!
good luck to myself!

chapter of life

walk this morning for grandpapaII funeral.
the end of a chapter.
the chapter of life.
may you rest in peace.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Rest In Peace

GrandpapaII passed away this morning.

May him rest in peace.

Monday, December 13, 2010


decide to go somewhere which at first didn't plan to.
but after all,all the stuff to make me regret is so much coming up.
history has been repeating whenever i decided something.
this make me started to afraid to decide anything in the future.
i do really regret with this stuff honestly.
the thing i've been waiting,i cant able to go.
since christmas is around the corner,i wish Santa can fullfill my needs.
Please Santa.
got a turn off for my mood the whole day.
dreaming something which i think more than useless.
sorry to my lecturer which i was dreaming in the class.
i didn't mean to.
i swear.
i just. . .
cant bear it.
so much thing come at a time again.
no think no life?

Monday, December 6, 2010


sorry for dead-ing my blog.
i was so not in the mood for blogging nowadays.
here infection there infection.
dunno where can i stop those.
y cant human just live healthy ever after?
anyways,need to get back to the life no matter what happen.

ignore my blaming above.
so Christmas is around there,what you guys planing for?