Sunday, February 27, 2011


untheEndable problem.
family issue.
same stuff.
who cares?!

Saturday, February 26, 2011


please larh.
stop drama-ing here and there.
you are great actress since the family is there.
stop it please.
i already done with it larh.
sick of it.


am i wrong for the first steps?
i want more now.
i wish more.
keep controlling.
i shouldn't do this.
no ruin no mess up nothing change

moodless mood light up again

since when the last im having the laughter that is sincerely laugh from the bottom of my heart?
there is no movie that make me really LMAO nowadays.
day go by day
so fast yet furious?
nothing but keep emoing.
fucktard myself.

Thursday, February 24, 2011


i like the feel from you.
but. . .
the way you treat others are great too.
don't dare to take further guessing.
not brave enough with no confident me.


the feeling is still there.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

a trip

having a trip to sungkai this morning then back to baby town after that.
many stalls that i usually eat and favorite food didn't open.
feeling like didn't get them a great trip and a well ending.
anyway,thanks them for giving a day like this!
i love you guys!

Saturday, February 19, 2011


got dermographism before dinner.
damn itchy!
for the whole body!
first time ever having such hyper condition!
someone help!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

sudden post

kinda long time with this feeling.
i know is better to stay at this situation.
but i wish more.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

CNY praying

outside bombing fireworks like cats and dogs.
so envy them who able to celebrate.
this is the second time i didn't celebrate these.
but this is the first time im urge for celebrating.
feel so sad that cant able to burn those dead note and lighten the big huge tanglung together.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

not the well feeling as i thought

well,perhaps this year Cny should be a great one for me.
almost everyone from overseas came back for this celebration.
but. . .
this celebration aren't my favorite at all.
maybe these due to the separated family "issue".
this celebration should be awesome if everyone can celebrate together without any argument or whatsoever unhappy stuff.
but this won't happen for my whole life.

yes, is great that everyone is back.
but is so hard to recover after a short happy days.
this happen since early secondary days.

trying hard not to exposed this "stupid" feelings because they hardly came back and i know they want great holiday like i do.
i do enjoy some days.

but happy great days are always Godly short. why it is so cruel to give me few days of Heaven feeling and go to the Hell after that short while? im not happy at all.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

around the corner

shouldn't i say so.
30th night of Cny today.
without any feel of Cny.
many ppl came back but kinda tired with these sometimes.
too big family ain't great tho.
tired with all those talking craping.
Cny,is just the day for me to fill my pocket and meet those crazy beloved only.
other than that,who give a damn?!

anyway,i even forgotten today is the Reunion Dinner.

sorry if i ruin your day with this post.
Happy Chinese New Year.