*HATE*

i hate myself..i hate myself for being so weak,useless,lazy and lunacy .....!thousand words 2 hate myself n no reason 2 love myself (im sayin me 2 myself)..so so emo now..!i noe i shouldn't say so coz tat will sorry 2 my parents but tis is my sudden feelin tat happen once a while..i jus wanna express my feelin at here but sumtimes i dunno how 2 write it out..feel like give up but i noe i cant do it coz i cant look down by others especially da LIM..there is tonnes of pressure n stress given out from da big LIM (but sum is my own needs)..haigh..sh*t..y there is rich n poor ppl in tis world..?y everyone hav their own life..?y ppl cant live n doin everythin together..?y there is sad n happy in tis world..?sorry guys i noe i say lots of stupid crap here but i jus wanna speak out da sux feelin im havin these days..i cant really feel da happy around me although my bro n uncles laugh happily right there..grhhhhh..GERAMnya..!!!@#$%^&*