believe,should i

a friend just broke up with her boyfi and these day there's couple friends who asking about relationship thingy.

as we were talking about another half of our life a.k.a partner.
i believe that love will come to you as you believe.
i have try to go for a relationship which not till the LOVE stage and so i had realize it really cant work out with just like or some people so called a oklah.
i just cant. sorry to say that.

saw alot of situation, types of couple and so on. if i say im not afraid to falling in love then im totally fooling you. i scare and easily feeling insecure and i do trust my intuition.maybe it will be bad but sometimes it is a fact till you believe.
although i enjoy my single life but somehow i do really wish there is someone who can be with me like a very very very best friend. mr.B where are you? when are you coming to me? =P

accept , go through and gained ?

im scare i cant able to handle it good, but please GOD,be with me.
help me to go through this...

another stage

Holla readers. sorry for abandoned my blog so long. at a sudden urge, i view back my blog and decided to write something today.

After a year plus of Experience. the kitchen life is about to come to the end.

I've decided to change my field. to leave a place which full of laughter, hard work, tears and almost i can called it a HOME place of workplace im so reluctant to leave. it fill with love in it but too bad the place and
environment gone worst.

I have no idea whether is it the right choice of choosing these. Anyway, i just feel like trying it. At least or maybe it get me a better life perhaps.

I don't know why am i having so many thing on my mind whenever im writing blog. And many times end up in a mess. So, if this happened and i will go off. =/ forgive me.

dreamed

i dreamed that you passed away in an car accident. so REal. so scary. so sad. i hope it wont happen to u, my fren. finger crossed.

dead

i know my blog is soooo dead. everyday work for 12-14 hours. dont even have enough time to rest. and now, Ramadhan is just the next day. die real soooon. TT

what am i having

Proud of BBF from getting the study trip to California from her competition. Happy for her.
How i wish i could have that opportunity of people giving a hand and bunch of opportunity around. Stress having but good experience. I can feel that. Envy alot. Lots of thinking on my mind before and after. I hesitated from what i want and i don't know what i want already. Im lost. Im not happy to myself. ='[

phobia

waiting.

really kills.

and i do im phobia with it.

screwed that!

slow killer

now im feeling this way.
which should path should i choose to?
this is way more killing then whatever was it.

confused

Godamnshit*

another offer

thanks chef and calley.
get another offer.
which i hope is mine.
FINGER CROSSED with this.
Please be SMOOTH my GOD.
i begged.

contracdictory

yes,from the title above.
wanna stepout but scare and lil bit of hate of.
courages from the heart needed.
hate for being that chicken.
cant i just remove that "chicken" nerve from me?
need it badly.

tired

i dunno how long i can wait.
a wrong step has taken and causes this.
damnit.

TOP wishes of mine

always thinking of bringing them (my dearest's LOVE aka the "factory" that manufacture me)travel together.

when i able to.

but now havent start with anything.

10 years time.

i dont wish the thing will happen.

in a mess.

i scare there is not enough time.

i wish they are not that suffering also.

i want the opportunity to do so.

my dream.

all about wait

heard that the MOM[ministry of manpower,sg] stopping ppl from goin in.

so, this is why im still under pending.

wait wait and nothing else, WAIT

got opportunity to apply hotel.

which i wanted all the time.

finding and planing to go for it.

wish me luck.

heart mess

need to wait another week again.

everything is so slow.

non-stop waiting.

after job then room prob.

sigh,why it is so hard to rent a room.

opps,should say why it is the room so fucking expensive?

so tired with this.

really.

hardly to take this.

mental goin to breakdown.

TT

Dislike

i have never hate a country so much.

so suffering being there.

suckish fucktard

finger crossed***

called HR early in the morning.

she say not yet got my detail.

2 more day left.

how would my day goes?

heartsink

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old woman

why you keep pushing me?
i already told you but u just keep being the typical s'porean.

cant u just give me sometime to breathe?

i also want it fast but i cant able to do anything more.

what u want me to do?

can u be abit more consideration on others.

im trying my best as well what.

damn.

gosh

everything isn't that pretty.

merlion city is not what i plan for till my training take place.

i try to took as a stepping stone and im sure this is not my destination.

what is my final destination?

i don't know.

but im sure and hope not MERLION.

maybe some of the ppl will say just a starting point, don't so negative.

but i do Sigh everyday.

not yet stable perhaps.

im giving myself a very big pressure which i cant push away.

im not happy.

at all.

decide

after thinking and all those emoing

i feel like changing

my job.

hopefully they able to make it goes smooth is all i wish.

finger crossed once again.

emotion

year end

everyone planing back to baby town

celebration

me, the only one who need to away

though i already knew

but still

emotion occurs

feelings up and down

=|

may this feelings go away asap